It's been a year, soulmate
a year ago I woke up in the morning, got out of bed. I had a cigarette and a cup of coffee as I always do and I was ready to leave the house and go to work. I was still living with my mom so it took me an hour to get to work that time. I was sitting in the bus, listening to music to avoid hearing the people around me and the daily sounds that are surrounding us. I arrived at work, turned on my laptop and started to get things done. I didn’t know at this point that this will be one of the most important days of my life. As my day passes, my coffee count goes up and I’m having a few cigarettes while I’m working. And as I thought it’s been just a normal day, you came in my life.
I still remember the conversation we had. You added me drunk on Snapchat that day and you told me you didn’t know where you were. I was instinctively worried about you. But why? I could have cared less if we’re honest, you were a stranger at this moment. But I felt the immediate connection to you and it felt like I’ve known you a lifetime pretty soon. We talked about art and business and I loved the way you look at things. And… you stole the cheese. (I will never ever forget that).
Let’s be honest, this year was fucking wild. A lot of ups and downs in your life, in my life, in our whole relationship. We had the best conversations, the most amazing moments, I had the best laughs with you. I enjoyed every single second that I was able to spend with you. I’m thinking about all those sleepless nights that I took on me just for talking to you. Do you remember the first call we had? It was pretty late for me and I was nervous as hell but also so excited to actually talk with you. I had to whisper because it was the middle of the night but you didn’t mind that. As soon as you realized that I was getting sleepy, you started to tell me some stories of you. I fell asleep to your voice the first time and I got addicted to that. You listened a little while to me when I fell asleep. Your voice sounds like home and it’s the most beautiful sound to me. It has always been. I loved your voice from the very first time I heard it.
Whenever I missed you, I watched your TikTok videos or looked at the images I had of you and I have to be honest, I’m still doing that.
We had to get to know each other and sometimes we miserably failed. We broke each other more than just once but we survived every bad thing that was happening. We’re a fucking strong team. I feel more connected to you with every obstacle we master together and sure, there were tons of bad times but looking back at it I think we needed that to become as strong connected as we are right now. I mean look at us… nothing on this planet can kill us or this relationship. It’s truly amazing. I know for a fact that those next years will be absolutely our years and I’m looking forward to be with you and spend those years with you. I’m excited that this year will be the one where we’re finally together for the first time. The last year was a year of soulmate communication, this year is going to be the year of soulmate feeling. I can’t wait to feel your closeness and every part of your body. Being able to look into your eyes, holding your face, kissing you all over, cuddling with you, resting my head on your shoulder, sleeping with you, holding your hand, hugging you… so many exciting things are waiting for us. We have many successes to celebrate, one of the biggest will be our reunion. The two soulmates who finally have each other.
With this note I want to tell you that I love you dearly. Yes, you’re the first man in my life and my first love but you’ll be that for the rest of my life. You’re literally perfect in my eyes. You got it all and I already decided that you are the one I want to say “Yes I do” one day. I’m not joking when I say I want to be with you forever. I do see us in our own home. No matter if it’s a house or just a small apartment in the beginning. We’ll have a place full of love and happiness. A place where you’re looking forward to come home each day. A place where we can let ourselves fall. A place where we can love each other without interruptions all day long. We’ll have an amazing home. And we’ll have an amazing life together.
I love you so very much and I can’t even describe how you enlighten every single day of mine. A year ago I had no clue, but it was in fact the best day of my life. It was the day my soulmate found me.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
– your cupcake and soulmate, Sarah